what to do,what to hope..?

"i ve never been so flowing-with-the-air in my life.
like,as long as i enjoy the days,as long as i know a lil bit about what i m gonna do in the future
i just let it flow,never worrying n never complaining.
i love living this way.
some time in my life i found one true love and when we seperated because of sumthing severe,it was the turning point in my life.
where all things on earth became so obvious,without mercy and caring.
the world is just fierce,like a war battlefield
never in my life i saw the world that way
and never did a person affect me so much
and some time after that,i decided what's best for me is to stay away from that LOVE.
that s the beginning of my tough days.
i was ambitious and not caring,numb.
goal-oriented girl as i always think of cool.
and then when everything became so in place..
i was bllissful with family and friends beside.
i was happy with my life and going to do better and better.

but life goes on and sometimes takes rest
that LOVE comes again in my life and i take a pace slow
i start reviewing my life and believe what happened was the best.
but i decide to embrace this lil time and chance
to indulge myself in this,for a moment
though i know this is the love i never have,and it may allways be like that in the future.
but i still want to."

buzz

mind busy like bees.
most ppl in the class have been soso busy about uni matters.
this is the anticlimax of choosing uni!
and this evening when i went out for dinner,Edrin called and said he had to talk,important matter.
so we talked and he informed me about uni for me,Lasalle.
i  m just so sure to go to NAFA,but then this info just came into consideration

Yad Holiday

On Sunday,there happened BLIA YAD event which took 100 so to Vihara Dharma Shanti Pakam.
It was in the morning so nice,the weather and the mood.
i just knew another memorable day will be etched.
well,this is an event organized for youths to come together,learn Dharmma,know more friends and have fun!
and the most impressive moment for me is when Shifu gave speech which always touch me to the deep.
the lesson was about friendship.
while lovers come and go,it friendship that remains.
then the moment the committee gave closing speech.
i just realized that it was members,not YAD committe,who organized the event and this is the first time i think.
this is what we call dreams come true.
i just admired them so much i almost dropped my tears.
they learn many things in YAD
BRAVO!

later in life

later in life,
will we be as happy as the old days?
will we come to a place just for chitchatting like we do in the old days?
will we have such good friends again,later in life?

live moves,sometime up sometimes down.
but the most important is that life goes on.
and in the end everything will still be ok.

a love strory

never ending love story. there's nothing i call happy or sad ending. coz life goes on..on and off,and I never decide what happy ending means.
I just step all bricks day by day.
and realize your're the one I love.
and I decide to embrace the moment.
i don't fear what will happen tomorrow.
today's is just too good to be true.
and if this story lasts..just thank God.
and if this story ends,also thanks, for the moment already enjoyed.
love you.

happiness in my eyes

to be happy is savouring every moment with joy
to be happy is learning from every mistake
to be happy is to have something to do
to be happy is to wait for every tomorrow
to be happy is to reminisce the past
to be happy is to love people n tell them
to be happy is to do what we love
to be happy is do help others unconditionally
to be happy is to make people happy
to be happy is to have friends to talk to
to be happy is to be able to smile for nothing
to be happy is to have the one we love by our side
to be happy is to know ppl we love love us back
to be happy is to think that we are happy
to be happy is to share happiness
to be happy is to be grateful for the things we have or not

fashion sketch

my first sketch with copic marker. a bit untidy

this is the second,much better that the first

a best friend i never knew i would have

well,i have to write it here  because i want her to see this but not to let me know she knows.
She is such a good friend,we chatted all day during boring classed and we shared all things including many unnecessary-to-tell things.
I never knew we would be such close friends at first.
I just wanna tell her I love her n I love being with her.
I always fear to tell her coz i dunno why.

great company,remarkabletalks,and just unforgettable days.

the starting of 23

yesterday was big day in ELDS..maybe I have such a passion in teaching. LOL
Then today,fun at school but pretty gloomy because of the 'disaster' in my post "23"

well there's a pic when Vanessa n me ate supercreamynyummny conello.

"an ice cream always leave the day remarkable"

day 23

i have nothing to describe today,it's just too...
i dunno.
first. i was daydreaming a while after school at class,n i swang my finger and hit a chair. when i just looked at my finger i could see it EXPANDING,just like blue balloon. it didn't hurt much.

but that's not the point.
the point is that i cried. in front of my classmates. how silly.
i was really frighten like i was going to die.
bcoz i thought that my blood was clotted.
n i trembled.
n i cried.

the bird's coming to me

                 someday in my life
           i never expected anything to come
               but then a bird came
               tantalizing to catch
               i saw it came to me
             smiling with full of hopes
          when i started believing it's mine
                  i was blissful
            but suddenly it turned away
               never reached my soul
                   well it almost
             but it never,that's the point.

holiday

I LOVE TODAY.
Morning at Grand Aston swimming pool with friends.
Lunch at MW nelayan.
"BELAJAR KELOMPOK" at Harvey's till 6.

the thing is that I never felt this close to friends,I mean,I wanna share my whole life with them,living in one house with them,coz there's hardly a chance,later in life,to have such intimate friendship.
We just did homework together,chatted,laughed,reminisced the past and so on.
But I never wanted to go home. I wished I had some photos to share here,but we're too busy enjoying to take some photographs.

new skirts,or first ones.

here's my whole-week-waiting. My sewing machine was broken somehow n I waited so long to have it fixed. The results are 2 pieces of skirts.

this is the first one I made,just ordinary pattern n model because my friend ordered it from me.

this one is the second n I'm lovin it so much. this is made with NEW pattern i invented myself. at first i was not sure how it'd turn out. i'm kinda satisfied. And I'm selling this out. comment please

gratitude

this morning when I open my blog n discovered some comments from my friends,I feel so grateful that
actually SOME ppl read my blog. thankx so much. I ever thought that it would only be a tiny-hidden-thing in the ocean of internet.
sometimes it feels so good sharing thoughts and feelings.

Few days ago I purchased my long-craved coloring media for fashion sketching (copic),which cost a horrible 50000rupiah per color.
And just now googled "copic" n found that it's a worldwide-used product for sketching manga,illustration,etc.
What surprised me is that there's something called "copic certification".
It means there's some techniques in using that thing,and today I m gonna consult with my teacher.

anyway,the colors produced by copic are so undescribable.

miss you ;)

nothing is better than confiding in my own blog,ignoring the fact that sometime ppl will come to visit.
owh..
nothing then.
fullstop.
no confiding here.

.vinny angela.

a friend of mine,talented so much in sketching and photography,just no one knows.
she quite thinks that this-is-nothing bout her talents. I told her often. I was stunned bye the photos she took with her mobile phone,a mr.bean's teddy bear at my desk,the thing i never thought would be somehow artistic. But SHE took picture of it so amazingly that i can't recognize it myself.

STUNNED,really. Why on earth is there very talented person and she's my own best friend and people never realize it?

well,i think most fashion products are amazing but why just few of them make it international?
i think it lies on the power of marketing. how good you're at exposing yourself is what really matters.

abc

randomly writing..

there's some word i get from Can You Keep A Secret:
-dun get me worng!
-gobsmacked
-obnoxious

and this morning when i was randomly thinking of anything:
it thought it was my bad habit pronoucing sumthing ss become sh.
like mesh for mess.
gulp,embarrassing indeed.

I m actually waiting fot ELDS class as I gave the students essay homework upon the topic euthanasia
I m afraid they'll mind me for giving homework.
but it's a-week-holiday,for God's sake.

when in love

I just finished reading Can You Keep A Secret? by Sophie Kinsela. thanks darling Vanessa for lending me this book. It completely absorbs me. There's a person named Jack there which reminds me to my ex-love of my life.
Yesterday I had a chat with him and all I got is a regaining of love and trust. Hey,it's 2 years back when we two were together and the feeling is still so real.
But he's kinda the person I dun wanna end up with,i told him.

but whatever will happen tomorrow we never know.

it's just old saying: love doesn't mean possessing.

indonesia's treasure

In fashion world,i know much about Gucci,LV,Cavalli,Vera Wang..
but what amaze me recently are the fashion from Indonesia.

kebaya and batik

I discovered that BIYAN is a very cool designer,taking indonesia's tradition to the world.

when i compare the highly-acclaimed brand like Vercase ,Jason Wu,etc..i feel that Indonesia has its own " something that glows". who on earth will be able to make something so beautiful like kebaya?

it's just about the fashion marketing that is lacking. I'll study more on this.

These days I've been busy experimenting on new pattern n fabric. It's been a lot of fun,though I prefer my own pattern than AGREED ones. I'm practising to sketch n color quickly for my NAFA entry test. Hope I can get scholarship. =)

big day

Yesterday was a BIG day. I went to Sun with my cousin n we went to Alta Moda...that the greatest textile shop I ever saw! I'd love to be in there all day. I bought satin n rubber-like fabric.
There's lace they call "France lace" which costs 700.000 rupiah per mtr.
I'm dying for it.

you too,love

        

                                    janet liono,little angel
                 it's when she said,"cya take care".
                        and I said,"you too,love."
                         she replied," love yu! "

a litte something

" it's a tale of everything,when everything seems so perfect,well it actually is. and then when every tomorrow worth waiting,and when every evening worth being written on diary. it's what i call bliss."

wonderful today

today is 2nd day of IDUL FITRI holiday n it s Jessy bday. We gave her a failed surprise and the went to Thamrin for lunch and ended up at school,volleyball-ing. LOL

the best part is crazy photoshoot (again) with Edric's new DSLR. thanks dric. and it was my first volley ball service,i got it right at first. maybe i m born a talented in volleyball. haha

here're some pics..

with vanessa the nengnong at volley place

crazy ppl photoing at thamrin plaza entrance,i took this pic when i was at car with edric n others,going to parking lot

photoshoot

there're some pics,tales about a park,an afternoon,and a friendship.

this one is my fav,like the scene in Sex and The City

a wish from heaven,that the bliss of friendship and a warn afernoon lasts,till the end of time.

unforgettable september

 It's been a chapter in my life,September,months to go to graduation n farewell parties.
there're great moments i wanna share with you. 5th September was Edric's bday party@ PARTY GARDEN. It was a self-organized party without EO n it turned out the best party ever!
here're some pics i captured during the party